I can’t remember exactly when it started - I think I was about 15 or 16.
It started with me punching my legs. It then moved to sharp objects on my lower arms and then - at its worst - razor blades on my upper arms. I’m 29 now and I still have the scars.
Heads Above The Waves is all about speaking honestly and openly, and so I wanted this post, on World Suicide Prevention Day, to continue on with that.
I’m sat writing this blog post on an airbed in a flat in Nijmegen, Netherlands. I’m writing it after the first flight I’ve ever taken by myself. I arrived in Nijmegen after something of an adventure. Yeah, let’s call it that..
One of our first tee designs (which we’ve just revisited as a vest) was inspired by the Limp Bizkit track ‘Hold On’. Recently, I’ve found myself thinking about what this really means.
For anyone who isn’t as much of a geek as I am, this is a bit in The Lord of the Rings where Frodo, a peaceful, quiet little fellow is questioning and regretting everything that’s happened, leading him away from his idyllic tranquil life on this crazy dangerous adventure to destroy an evil ring for the good of Middle Earth (No, wait, stick with me here, I’m gonna make a good point).
As I got off the train in Caerphilly this morning, I noticed someone had scrawled: “kill yourself” on the floor by the tracks. I’m sure everyone reading this would agree, that’s pretty disgusting. It appalled me, and it upset me, if we’re being honest. I wanted to write over it. At first with an angry message to whoever wrote it, informing them in no uncertain terms how irresponsible, insensitive and downright stupid it was for them to write such garbage, and the effect it could have on whoever reads it.
Si chats with the lead singer of Decade, Alex Sears, at Cardiff University Students’ Union to see how he keeps his head above the waves.
If someone confides in you that they’ve been struggling with self-harm, it’s important to know how to handle it. These are some ideas that we’ve gathered from talking to people, that might help you.
All of the advice below has come from people who self-harm, but it’s important to remember that everyone is different, and this won’t apply to everyone. But it’s a good starting point! Often times, just actually being there for someone makes the world of difference.